I'm in the middle of week 6 with this stupid running and tonight was horrible. I had to jog 10 minutes, walk 3, then jog 10 again. I think it is even a stretch to say I'm running at this point. I'm staying at 5mph or above, but omg, how freakin' slow can I really be. Tonight the first 10 minutes went just fine, I walked, started jogging again and I just couldn't keep going. I know it was a mental thing because really, everything was okay, but I just couldn't make myself keep going. I have no one or nothing to be accountable to but myself and that just isn't working this week. I ended up in a ball on the floor in tears in the middle of the 2nd 10 minutes.
This whole week is off. I generall start my weeks on Saturday, but I was out of town at a friend's house Friday night and Saturday, so wasn't able to run. Sunday I was so flipping tired from the rest of the weekend I didn't run.
I'm still not losing weight. I've lost a total of 4.5 pounds in 6 weeks. That is just ridiculous and is contributing to my incredibly bad attitude.
I have to find my motivation and some accountabilty within myself again so I can get back on track. I did finally pick my butt up and finish out my last 10 minutes. I finished the last minute strong at 7 mph (holy crap, do people really run marathons at that pace?? I felt like I was sprinting!)
UGH! that's how I feel about tonight. Tomorrow is another day.....
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Sounds like a little bit of burnout. You need to keep this up though and push through it. Lots of stuff is sidetracking your thoughts but keeping this routine will help you. Sometimes it isn't motivation that keeps you going but the comfort of knowing "this is what I'm going to do."
ReplyDeleteYou mentioned some interval training of 800 meters that your brother suggested. I personally would cut that back to 100 or 200 meters. I don't think the 800 meter interval will target different muscles than the 5K will. 50/100/200 meter sprints will definitely change the workout. It might change your fun quotient also.
Try not to be discouraged by the weight loss because at least you are losing some weight. Have you been checking your measurements? Are they going down? Screw the weight loss if you think your butt looks better then you are doing the right thing.
Look at what you have done so far! 5mph is still 2.5 times faster than walking and you did it for 10 minutes. Could you do that 6 weeks ago? Now you can do it, take a short break, then start again! YOU RAN FOR 20 MINUTES LAST WEEK!! You punched out 7mph for a full minute AFTER you thought you were beat. Could you do that 6 weeks ago? You've lost weight!
Your frustation seems to be from your high goals. That's your motivation. Reach those goals. Run the 5K. Lose the weight.